Makan kenduri

Semalam, Aishah & Yaya ikut kami balik rumah. Mak bagi tahu Ibu Non ada jemput kenduri. Ummi tak pasti kenduri apa. Since Ummi pun memang nak hantar Aishah & Yaya, Ummi pun setuju untuk pergi. Lagi pun Ummi nak pass stock Sambal Garing Che Nor pada Ucu sikit. Senang kalau ada order dari ejen Banting. اِ نْ شَآ ءَ اللّه 

Tadi, kami ke rumah Ibu Non di Banting. Ummi memang suka kalau pergi kenduri rumah Ibu Non ni. Masakan dia sedap. Sama macam masakan Uwan. Sedap sangat. Sebab tu lah bila balik rumah Uwan, Ummi hampir tak pernah masak rasanya. Ummi nak makan masakan Uwan. Melampau betul menantu Mak ni kan. Semoga Allah beri kesihatan yang baik dan umur panjang untuk ibu mertua ku. آمِيْنُ يَا رَبَّ الْعَالَمِيْن 

Lama juga kami di rumah Ibu Non. Ramai sedara mara Abah ada. Ramai bertanya abang adik mana? Mereka panggil Abah sebagai adik. Jadi, yang muda dari Abah tu, panggil Abang Adik la. Adik la sangat kan Bah. Manja sangat bunyi tu Hahahhaa!!!

Dekat dekat nak balik tu, kami dijamu dengan Ice Cream Cornetto. "Rezeki orang balik lambat" kata Sophea. Ya betul tu. Sophea awal awal dah ajak balik. Ummi rasa tak proper lah pulak. Dah la tak menolong. Nak balik awal pulak. Ish ish ish...

Masa kat kenduri, Abah call guna video Messenger. Memang Ummi mintak Abah call supaya dapat cakap dengan Uwan. Alhamdulillah. Dapat cakap. Elok pulak line. Dapatlah Uwan tengok muka anak manja dia tu hehee.. Ummi tahu perasaan seorang ibu. Mesti nak dengar khabar berita anaknya. Uwan takde internet. Camana lah Abah nak call. Baru sampai kat sana.  Belum dapat communicate guna phone line lagi. Syukur ada teknologi internet ni. 

Dalam jam 5.30pm, kami tinggalkan rumah Ibu. 3 kotak sambal garing bertukar kereta. Semoga laris cepat hendaknya. آمِيْنُ يَا رَبَّ الْعَالَمِيْن 

Kami tiba dirumah dalam jam 6.30pm. Nak kena fikir dinner. Nak masak apa lah agaknya ya... 🤔🤔🤔

Sepi itu indah... kadang-kadang...

Sedih tak? Tanya adikku. Dia dah tau kot jawapannya. Tipu lah kalau Ummi kata yang Ummi tak sedih. Ramai beranggapan Ummi dah biasa kena tinggal. Ya betul lah tu. Memang biasa. Tapi kali ni mungkin agak lama jaraknya. Banyak benda Ummi kena uruskan sendiri. Kalau tidak, weekend je Abah balik dan Ummi boleh sub sikit tugas pada Abah. Kali ni mungkin agak lama baru kami dapat berkumpul semula. اِ نْ شَآ ءَ اللّه . Nampaknya banyak benda Ummi kena buat sendiri. Semoga Allah permudahkan.

17 Jun 2007, pertama kali Abah pergi ke Tanah Anbia itu. Shahmey genap sebulan umurnya. Dengan keadaan masih dalam pantang, mood pun belum berapa stabil, Abah tinggalkan Ummi bersama Kakak, Coan, Shahmey dan seorang bibik. Bibik yang nampak sangat membantu tetapi pada hakikatnya banyak 'membantu' menghabiskan duit dan barang2 dalam rumah. Adoiii!! Pengalaman betul. 

Hari ini, 16 Februari 2018, sekali lagi Abah ke Tanah Anbia itu. Pastinya bukan senang untuk membuat keputusan itu. Sedikit pengorbanan diperlukan buat masa ini. Ummi redha اِ نْ شَآ ءَ اللّه  Keadaan juga sedikit berbeza. Anak anak Ummi dah besar. Anak-anak dah boleh membantu kerja-kerja rumah. Alhamdulillah...

Rindu terap rindu. Semoga rindu ini akan memberi kebaikan dan bukan sebaliknya. آمِيْنُ يَا رَبَّ الْعَالَمِيْن 

Best lah Abah... nanti dapat makan Tomyam Pattaya 😂😂😂

Oh ya. Gambar kat atas tu? Ummi snap gambar tempat parking kereta tadi. Ummi takut sesat jalan 🤣🤣🤣 

Sepatah dua kata

Ever heard of this especially when someone is requested to give a speech. Sepatah dua kata may become seribu dua ribu patah kata hahahah!!!

I plan to write only 'sepatah dua kata' but I think, I'm gonna write much much more than that. What makes me having a heart to write in this almost forgotten blog? Perhaps, I've a little more free time in this middle of the night whereby my kids are all in bed. Perhaps, I'm a bit feeling no where to turn to when I have this little feeling in my heart. My own blog is the best to express anything I have inside.

Some friends have made their blogs private! That's their choice. I have to respect them. My blog most probably won't get privatized. If I need a private blog, I'll create a new one. But again, nothing is so private about me. If it's really private, then I just keep it in my heart. Only God knows about it ;).

At this hour, I kinda miss someone. Someone who was really closed to me at one point of time in my life. Someone who used to cuddle me when I cried for getting mosquito bites at night. Someone who always looked into my eyes with love. Someone who listened to me when I had a tough time. Someone who knows my favorite food and cooked for me when I asked for it. Someone who always put me into account in her important decisions... The someone is not here with me and I really miss her.

There are times whereby we need a unique someone to come and be with us. At this moment, I really need her. I just want her to listen to me like she always did. I want to listen to her useful advices. The way she talked to me was spontaneous, without pressure. I remember every single word of her up till today. Thank you Allah for giving me those special moments...

Your life has just begun?? ;)

If life begins at 40, then, you're just born ;). Selamat lahir ke dunia yang penuh dugaan ini my dear :).

Doa Neeza untuk Abang:

Ya Allah yang Maha pengasih yang Maha penyayang, yang Maha pemurah

cahayailah hidup Abang dengan keberkatanMu setiap waktu, setiap masa dan di mana saja Abang berada. Semoga Abang menjadi seorang suami yang soleh dan bapa yang beriman serta bertanggungjawab untuk Neeza dan anak-anak. Tak lupa juga, semoga kebahagiaan sentiasa menjadi milik Abang, dunia dan akhirat...

Semoga hari-hari mendatang yang bakal Abang tempuhi akan dapat Abang lalui dengan tabah dan penuh ketenangan dari Allah s.w.t...

Ya Allah, lindungilah dan kasihilah dia selalu...

Hari ni umur Ma genap 58 tahun. Tapi itu tak lah penting sangat. Apa lah ada pada umur. Yang penting ialah macam mana kita menggunakan umur tersebut. Tapi bagi kami semua, hari ni ialah hari istimewa sebab tanpa Ma, tiadalah kami semua. Memang 3 November menjadi tarikh yang selalu kami ingati. Walaupun anak sulung Ma ni berada jauh dimata, di hati Ja Ma selalu bertahta.

Doa Ja untuk Ma, semoga Allah berkati hidup Ma selalu. Semoga Ma sentiasa bahagia dan semoga Allah jauhkan duka walaupun sedikit untuk Ma. Ya Allah, panjanglah umur Ma supaya Ma dapat menyiapkan diri dengan lebih sempurna untuk hidup yang lebih bahagia disana. Ameen....

Kami semua sayang Ma....



Ja letak gambar Ma pegang Ja masa kecil sebab Ja nak Ma selalu rasa muda sebab Ma memang sentiasa muda dihati Ja. Dan Ja pun nak selalu rasa macam your little baby girl yang selalu dimanja ;).

A decade ago...

There were smiles
There were laughter
There were joy
There were blessed
There were cheers
There were happiness

There were sorrow
There were misery
There were depress
There were heartbroken
There were pain
There were tears

Above all, there were you..

YOU... complete me!


Happy 10th Anniversary to another half of me..

May our love get stronger each day goes by..

We used to be two
Now, we are six
Alhamdulillah...

Also, Happy 32nd birthday to my dearest sister who are now in Kuala Kubu Baru. May Allah grant all your wishes and may happiness be with you till the end.

Suatu ketika dulu

Lebih kurang 9 tahun dulu (tapi bukan tarikh hari ini), seseorang mengajak Neeza untuk keluar makan. Kononnya nak celebrate our first anniversary of marriage. Kami tak berdua. Kami bertiga. Yang ketiga tu baru berumur kira-kira 3 bulan (Sophea lah tu). Dia tanya Neeza, nak makan kat mana. Neeza bagi lah idea dan Neeza tambah lagi idea tu dengan mengajak adik ipar Neeza sekali (cait!!! tak romantic langsung hehee..). Sesaje je sebab tempat makan yang Neeza suggest tu dekat dengan tempat tinggal adik ipar.

Malam tu, kami sangat excited untuk keluar makan. Of course lah excited. It was our anniversary. Lagipun Neeza cuma dapat jumpa Abang weekend saja. Kiranya, weekend wife lah hahaha!!! Abang di Kuantan dan Neeza di USJ semenjak kami kawin lagi.

Sesampai saja di tempat makan, kami pun cari tempat duduk. Neeza yang tak pernah beranak ni dengan selamba mintak high chair nak letak Sophea. Sabor je lah.. Budak umur 3 bulan nak duduk atas high chair! Duduk pun tak reti lagi masa tu. At last, tak jadi ambik sebab Abang kata, tak payah hehee.. Dalam pada dok order, Sophea merengek. Okay lagi. Tak lama lepas tu makin kuat lah pulak dia merengek. Bukan merengek lagi, dah masuk tahap meraung. Orang kiri kanan dah jeling-jeling dah. Ada kedengaran kata, tak elok bawak budak kecik kesini (lebih kurang gitu lah). Memang tempat kami duduk tu betul-betul di atas laut. Laut kan sinonim dengan.... sambung sendiri lah ya.. Budak kecik kan boleh tengok benda-benda yang kita tak nampak.

Bila food sampai, kami memang tak dapat nak makan. Tahap jerita Sophea dah tak dapat ditahan lagi (telinga kami lah tak leh tahan... Telinga Sophea tahan je sebab kalau tidak dia tak menjerit :P). Then, kami decide untuk tapau the food. Last-last, makan kat mana?? Makan kat rumah adik ipar Neeza.... hehehee... Sophea pun tak nangis lagi. Elok je dia tidur. Settle lah our anniversary dinner hahahah!!!

I like, you hate

I like it, you hate it
I admire them, you feel nothing about them
I prefer it that way, you want it your way
I find it nice, you don't
I think we should do it this way, you say this way is old fashioned
I want 'em, you want to get rid of 'em
I said it's okay, you said it's not okay
I say let's go shopping, you say don't waste money

We will never agree to each other
Yet we can live together
as a husband and wife
with so many hurdles, obstacles, argument and miracle!

I guess I should say
without having disagreement with each other
Our life will be boring
The colors of our life will be only one - either black or white
These differences make our life colorful with attractive patterns..



Am I writing this with my conscious mind?
I guess not!
heheee...

Yesterday

Yesterday afternoon, I was poked by 'him'. I could hear 'his' voice. I woke up almost instantly. I opened my eyes, realizing that he has gone to work for more than an hour ago. My heart beat fast. I looked around. Who actually poked me just now? My 2 little kids were sleeping soundly. I saw my eldest in front of the lappie. I asked her whether she was the one who poked me. She denied. My heart beat even faster.

I picked up the phone and rang him. There was no coverage. I pretend to be calm but I failed. I rang again. Still, there was no coverage. I prayed and asked for the best from Him. After a while, I rang him again. He answered. Alhamdulillah, at least could listen to his voice though he was in a midst of something.

I sit down and thought back of 'the experience' I went through. Why did it happen the way it was? Did Someone tried to tell me something? Oh Dear... I was scared thinking of the worst situation. I remember story about similar experience by him. It made me really worried.

Filling myself with prayer, I waited till evening. I rang him again. He was on the way back. Alhamdulillah, I could still listen to his voice. I looked at the clock. The time seem to move like a snail. When it reached 4, I rang him agaim. He was nearby. Alhamdulillah. But, my nervousness didn't stop until I saw him. When I heard ding! dong! on the door, I felt relief... at least for the moment.

He stood by the door. Though I showed no smile on my lips, I thank to Allah for his safe journey back home. I silently prayed for many others (also all) safe journey for him, where ever he will be. Dear God, if you wanna take him or them, please take me before. I couldn't imagine myself without him or them. You're the Most benefient and merciful. Ameen...



Note to the readers:

I don't expect anyone to understand the above coz' it is meant for me, myself and I. No one else. Comments are welcome but I appreciate for no question ask. Thank you.

Mereka yang istimewa

Seperti yang ada Neeza cerita dalam entry yang lepas, salah satu acara makan ialah meraikan anak-anak OKU. Ma memang selalu buat makan-makan untuk mereka ni. Cuma Neeza yang tak berkesempatan nak join sebab Neeza takde di kampung. Hari tu memang Neeza teruja sangat tengok kawan-kawan adik Neeza di sekolah istimewa tu. Macam-macam telatah mereka. Yang kesiannya, ada yang tak boleh berjalan. Ada yang tak boleh bercakap. Yang down syndrome paling ramai dan perangai mereka sama lah macam adik Neeza. Cuma satu saja, mereka jujur dan hati mereka ikhlas. Bahagianya mereka dapat hidup bahagia di dunia dan akhirat kan...

Mereka penuh dengan kasih sayang. Keesokan harinya, adik Neeza dan kawan-kawan mereka ada jamuan harijadi dekat swimming pool Bukit Mentok (Kak Rina mesti tahu tempat ni heheh..). Neeza dan Ma pergi ke sana untuk jemput adik Neeza balik. Ada 2 orang antara mereka yang dah agak berumur (dalam linkungan 30an) bagi belon pada anak-anak Neeza walaupun anak-anak Neeza tak mintak pun. Langsung tak tahu erti kedekut mereka ni.

Bila tengok mereka yang berhati tulus ni, Neeza rasa sedih sebab ramai antara kita yang berakal dan boleh berfikir dengan waras tapi mempunyai hati yang tak baik dan busuk macam bangkai. Bagus juga kan kalau kita boleh jadi macam mereka. Sentiasa bahagia sebab takde masalah yang perlu difikirkan...

Today in 2 years ago

It was a teary late night and early morning. He left me with the 3 kids and a bibik who was fired about a month after that ;). Shahmey was exactly a month old on that day. He can't even recognize his Abah yet. After 30 days of my delivery to Shahmey, he went to KSA - a country with a full of promises.

The time flies like a thunder. Now, it's already 2 years and Shahmey already has a sister :) (productivenyaaaa.. huhuuu..). It is exactly 2 years that Abang has served the company. I hope the 2 years will continue for many more years. Insya Allah.

Today, Shahmey is 2 years and 1 month old. Sumeyyah is 5 months and 2 days. I snapped a few pictures of these 2 little kiddos. Since they are small, whatever they did look cute. Imagine the acts that they did are done by adults... yikess!! tak dapat nak bayangkan.. huduh bebenorrr...

Sumeyyah was posing with a pretty gown, a gift from Umi Aishah. Kasut tak muat lagi la Umi... Tunggu Sumeyyah besar sikit ya.. :). Gown tu memang cantik. Sayang Sumeyyah takde rambut. Kalau tidak, boleh jadi Cinderella ;). Nasib baik ada head band Aunt Elle bagi. Boleh cover kepala botak Sumeyyah.. :D

Malam ni, nak pergi makan rumah Umi Aishah, Insya Allah. Jom kita terjah dapur pulak heheh.. (nak pergi masak lah maknanya tu...)

Lari dari rumah

Teringat dulu di masa kecil (sekolah rendah), tiap kali kena marah dengan Ma, dalam hati selalu terdetik Ja nak lari dari rumah. Tak tahu lah dari mana datang idea tu. Takde sape pun bagi tahu. Ada sekali tu, Ja siap bagi tahu pada Bada, "Dik, jom kita lari nak!". Sabar je lah kan. Nasib baik lah Bada kata "kita nak pergi mana?". Tak jadi lah nak lari.. hehee.. Lawak sungguh lah.

Kalau lah betul Ja lari dari rumah, tentu Ja akan menyesal sampai sekarang. Sekarang, Ja punya 4 cahayamata. Anak sulung Ja telah pun sebaya umur Ja semasa Ja pernah terfikir nak lari dari rumah dulu. Sekarang ni, setiap kali Ja marah anak Ja itu, Ja terfikir, agak-agaknya ada tak dia terfikir nak lari dari rumah macam Ja dulu.. takut pulak bila terfikir macam tu. Semoga dia tak lah buat benda-benda terlebih creative tu. Ameen...

Ma, hari ni ialah Hari Ibu. Ja tak aware sangat benda ni sampailah Ja baca sana-sini tentang Hari Ibu ni. Siapa yang invent Hari Ibu ni pun Ja tak tahu. Tapi Ja tahu, jasa dan kasih ibu tiada galang ganti. Tak dapat ditukar dengan apa jua pun. Happy Moter's Day Ma. I love you with all my heart.




Edited to post:

Anak-anak balik sekolah.

Ummi!!! Happy Mother's Day!! (sambil bagi perfume dia yang Auntie Nor bagi as a gift sebab dia janji tak makan chips lagi)

Thank you... (smile) Aik!! ini kan perfume Kakak.

Takpe.. Kakak bagi Ummi...

Coan lari masuk bilik dia.

Happy Mother's Day Ummi!! (sambil hulur kad)

Thank you..

(Ummi sangatlah happy...).

Coan selalu buat kad and creative items dalam kelas. So, dia bolehlah bagi kad. Kakak, tak bagi sebab tak buat pun. Diorang tak tahu pun apa Mother's Day tu tapi since ramai orang dok cakap Happy Mother's Day, diorang pun wish sama lah.

Ummi... Mother's Day tu apa? Kakak pelik lah, mana diorang dapat hadiah-hadiah semua tu ya?

(Ummi speechless tak tahu nak kata apa. Cuma, Ummi tahu yang Ummi love all my kids equally).

Nurse sambilan

"AR, Saya tak datang hari ni ya"

"Ibu sakit??"

"Taklah. ***** saya sakit"

Semalam Neeza cuti sekolah. Bila cuti, kena lah call driver bas tu. Pandainya driver tu cakap melayu ya. Memang lah pandai. Dah dia tu orang seberang Malaysia. Hari ni pun Neeza cuti lagi. Dah call dah driver tu. Kalau tak call, kesian nanti, dia berenti depan rumah dan tunggu tapi orangnya tak tiba sampai sudah.

Neeza ambik contract jadi nurse buat sementara waktu. Jaga Shahmey ke? Tak lah.. Shahmey dah sihat dah. Takde plaster lagi kat kepala dia. Dah berlari merata-rata (macam lah dia reti berjalan slow pun). Memanjat lagi dan lagi. Cuma kami lebih pay attention lah kan sebab tak nak pisang berbuah banyak kali..

Ada patient baru di rumah Neeza ni. Tak lain tak bukan ialah... jeng! jeng! jeng! the other half of me! Sakitnya agak teruk jugak. Salah satu deria penting mengalami kecederaan sementara.

Semalam, Neeza bawak dia pergi hospital. Errr.. Neeza duduk jadi 'mata' dia. Dia lah yang drive kan. Kesian dia. Tapi takpelah bang. Dugaan dari Allah tu. Sabar ya...

Balik dari hospital, bermulalah tugas nurse. Letak ubat setiap 6 jam atau lebih. Malamnya patient Neeza ni found out yang ada a few friends yang minum sesama pada malam sebelumnya pun mendapat sakit yang sama. Haaaa!!! mesti 'keras' tempat diorang minum tu kan.. hahahaha!!! Memang lah keras. Dinding batu.. kerusi meja kayu.. nak makan pun tak lut!

Sekarang ni cuaca tak bagus sangat. Virus senang merebak. Doctor pesan pada patient Neeza (doctor yang betul-betul doctor lah). Dia kata, jangan keluar sangat sebab tak nak virus berjangkit pada orang lain. Abih tu... kami yang kat rumah ni??? Bukan orang ke?? Uwwaaaa!!!! Insyaallah, segala penyakit datang dari Allah. Kita berdoa saja. Kalau Allah kata, nak kena, kena lah. Kalau tidak, tidak lah... kannnnnn...

Untuk Abang, semoga cepat sembuh. MC dah dapat 2 hari tu. Cukuplah kan.. Kiranya pecah rekod lah ye sebab semenjak kerja kat sini, baru kali ni ambik MC. Esok, tunggu lah Fayez tanya apa ye hehehe...

She has it all!

Yes. Everything is due to her. I should put the blame on her. I was so sleepy this morning in my class. I felt like sitting on the back row and go zzzz but of course it can't be done. I didn't have enough sleep last night. I had to wake up every now and then for her.

Last night, I thought I was going to have fever. My body temperature seems a bit towards at the high end. I rested besides her. I thought of taking a long nap before a real sleep hehee.. She cried though. I fed her but she kept crying. I knew what she wanted - a nappy change. She never like to be stained inside :). I changed her nappy and fed her again. She slept well. Alhamdulillah.

But, after sometimes, she woke up. Hungry I guess. True enough. Then she woke up - hungry again. Then, I was the one who have to wake up. But I chose to sleep. Luckily I didn't exceed the time.

During the day, she wanted me to be with her - to cuddle and play with her. She preferred to stay awake during the day when the Ummi needed a sleep so badly.

Above all, I love her. She is my angel like the 3 other angels in the house. She flatters me with her smile - a true and honest smile. She calms me with her baby smell - my sorrow day changes in a second. She is my heart and she has it all... (of course the other 3 have it all too ;))

Thank you sayang.. :)

Geram jugak rasanya. Ingatkan bila dah increase speed kepada 512MB, makin laju lah internet ni. Memang laju tapi mula-mula aje. Sekarang ni, selalu aje slow, lembab macam siput! Kesian siput. Tak pasal-pasal orang bagi perumpamaan tak positif untuk dia. Kalau kancil tu mesti dapat sebijak kancil. Macam lah bijak sangat kancil tu. Selalu aje kena tembak buat lauk.. heheh..

Anyways, saja nak cerita yang disebabkan problem ni jugak lah, I feel so fed up to write entries in the blog. Macam mana nak ada mood? Bila nak save je, macam tunggu buah yang tak gugur. Nak upload gambar aje, kena tunggu sampai 5 jam! Opss!! that's a bit exaggerating lah kot hehehe..

Schedule busy yang dah over itu ialah:

Rabu - hospital
Khamis - School Gala
Jumaat - Ladies gathering (for a good course okay..!)
Sabtu - arabic exam (2 chapter aje - tapi arabic la.. bahasa asing bagiku ;))

Of courselah, it didn't take the whole day for me to do the things listed above. Tapi, bila dah buat yang itu, balik rumah, badan pun penatlah. Nak layan yang itu, yang ini, yang sana, yang sini dan yang disitu. Ramai tuuu.. Belum campur nak layan mata lagi. Mesti kena layan. Bukan tengok tv tapi tidur! Sleep is important for babies everyone including myself. Kalau tak cukup tidur, camana mood nak okay. Lagipun the next day, ada program lain pulak. Kena prepare secukupnya.

Sambil type ni, Neeza dok terpandang title kat atas tu.. heheh.. masih takde kena mengena dengan apa yang Neeza tulis so far. Last 2 weeks (lama dah sebenarnya), Coan bawak balik kad. Excited sungguh dia nak tunjuk kat Ummi dia ni. Dia buat sendiri, kononnya lah. Walaupun bukan 100% dia yang buat, Ummi appreciate apa yang Coan buat ni. Dulu-dulu Kakak pun ada jugak buat macam ni. Ummi simpan aje sampai Ummi tak tahu kat mana dah Ummi letak. Masa tu belum ada bl0gspot. Kalau tidak, boleh jugak Ummi snap picture, simpan gambor dia aje. Anyways, thanks ya sayang... I love you.. :)